End of this Chapter.

I'm really excited.

I just had an epiphany, if there ever was one to be had.

Why attach yourself to someone who won't return? Why care so much, give your heart so deeply, relinquish your soul so passionately, to find that nothing will or can come of it?

I'm done, seriously. And I don't mean that in a bad way at all. I'm starting afresh. Renewing my life, literally and metaphorically. I realized that I really do live in the past, and I even more so really need to stop. It's only hurting me, because I'm YEARNING for things to be how they were. They can't be. I'm smart enough to realize that. I don't know why I can't act upon this realization.

I got the reassurance I needed. I'm happy to report that it's OKAY to ask questions, and to keep asking until you are satisfied. Because sometimes, all you need is a little reassurance that whatever you are thinking is right or wrong. Once you get reassurance, your head is cleared (even if you don't think it is, like I thought two hours ago). It's better to know than not to know. It's better to have everything cleared up as best it can be without having annoying "What if?"s lingering in the back of your mind.

Anyway, today marks the start of the rest of my life. I promise, on this day, December 4, 2008, my life will change.